Here I am, it’s 01:23 in the morning and I’m STILL AWAKE. I have 2 weeks to go before I give birth (they’re inducing me- fun) and I have spent the last, probably week, just staring at the walls when it comes to bedtime.Then when it’s time to wake up, I am exhausted and I don’t just feel it, I look it and this is BEFORE the baby gets here.
I’m not gonna lie, it sucks!
So I haven’t wrote anything in ages, not because I haven’t got anything to say but I always feel that if I’m forcing myself to write something every day, week, then my writing just doesn’t flow, but I’m still here and still ALIVE…..well just!
I have been toying with this idea for some time and I think it’s time I just put it out there because like I say, I am an honest, genuine person and I feel that this could help others.
I don’t know where you are in your life, but I’m in a tricky spot. Like some of you know, I am pregnant, (Yes I’m STILL pregnant, I look like a whale and feel like I’ve rivaled an elephant in their pregnancy timeline) and for the first time, in a few years, I’m scared.
I’m scared about my future. All these people say that once a baby comes along, they take up all your time and you won’t be able to have your online business and you won’t have time to meet clients and you won’t want to because YOUR WHOLE life revolves around this thing that quite frankly, just sleeps, shits and vomits for the first 6 months.
Everyone starts off with a little giggle and then says “ha, you won’t have time to sleep, let alone work on your business”, they then spend the next half an hour moaning about their life and how their kids dictate their every move, but EVERY SINGLE time, they end it with “oh but they are worth it”. REALLLY!!!!!
You might think I’m an arsehole for saying it, but I want a life. I don’t want to be one of them mums that just goes on about their kids and that’s all they have in this Life. I want to live mine. Everything seems monotonous and dull when thinking about just looking after a baby. I mean I might like it, but the “IDEA” of it, just sucks balls at the moment.
I’m also scared about my finances. I’ve always, ALWAYS relied on me and for the first time in a long time, I feel vulnerable. If I can’t get to my business, then where is the money going to come from. What happens if I don’t have any money coming in? What happens if it all crashes down around my ears?!
All these questions……
From losing 5 family members in 5 years, I’ve learnt that life is so bloody short and I don’t want to hang around until the baby is 4 to go back to my business. I don’t want to not earn my own money. I don’t want to just sit here and just have a baby in my life. I WANT IT ALL!!!
In fact, I think I’ve upped the ante, if anything, in the last few weeks.
I haven’t written a sodding thing, but in the background I’ve been doing interviews, talking on podcasts and guest blogging and I’ve loved it.
By doing these interviews / podcasts, I’ve noticed a trend here and I’m going to share it with you here.
Nothing in life is impossible and Mindset is EVERYTHING. Like literally the crux of it all.
Limiting Beliefs have risen their ugly head – especially in my case and this is where most people (including myself) suffer. You think you can’t and you won’t.
If you think you can you can, if you think you can’t you’re right!”― Abraham Lincoln
This also leads me to believe that having a baby doesn’t have to be the end of my life, it can be the start of something beautiful and when she gets here, I will be damned, if all my hard work goes to waste. After all, where will my legacy end up if I don’t show her how to kill it online and how to make money from your passions.
Being scared can be a good thing, because it enlightens your passion even more, it gives you a sense of urgency and action takes over. It can shake your Comfort Zone and give you the heebie jeebies, but ultimately it’s taking you to a different place, that unknown place, the one where everyone fears the worst.
- Don’t listen to anyone who tells you that you can’t have it all.
- Don’t listen to yourself when you say you can’t have it all.
- Don’t give up
- Believe you can and you will.
I’d like to say I’m off to the land of nod, but I will probably sit here and work on my business some more, connect with others and have a jolly old chat on Facebook with the friends I’ve made who are working across different time zones.
Make something of your LIFE PEOPLE, follow your passions and do what you damn well please.